My life

Just got home from spiritualist church, I think it was a success. I went for a reason, for guidance maybe, just needed to hear Im doing the right thing, thats all. I do believe our lives are mapped out, and there are set paths to take, whether we find them quickly or take forever. The meeting came to the end, out of time, and they hadnt been to me..but then one of the mediums jumped up and dashed over to me, saying 'i just need to tell you this, you ARE on the right path, keep on with what you're doing'. So i guess thats my answer. It was a very special message, it gave me an answer to what i needed to know.
For the last few weeks, things have been happening, things that seemed to be happening for a reason, and I could see the reason in them ( I hope this is making sense!) Its a nice feeling, like everythings happening after being in a rut for so long, yet scarey too. so much change. Im terrible with change, which is obviously why i needed these things to happen to give me a push.
Now my bf is demanding that I move to his town, otherwise we're over as there wont be a future for us. Its another thing thats gonna push me to make a move i never would have considered otherwise, but, I think, a much needed move.
BUT on the other hand,its a huge step, and a big risk. I will have to give up everything. I dont have an awful lot, but what I do have I have achieved myself, spent years working for. Im very independant, and very proud of what I have got. Ill be going to London, and Im a country girl. Ive always hated London, altho I must admit, I havent really been there many times. I dream of living in a little farm house surrounded by fields and horses, but my new life will be the total opposite. It feels wrong, but also so right. So despite gettin the message id hoped for, from the spirits, Im still very confused. Help!!!
Another problem is my bfs moods, as mentioned in previous entry! I never know where I am with him. I never know why hes moody and dont feel I can ever ask. Things always get twisted, I end up being the one inthe wrong no matter what, hes very good at it, ill give him that! Oh God give me strength!!

Wasnt that a song? Anyway, this is my second entry today, I think I talk too much! I was quite suprised at getting 2 comments in the first 30 mins of signing up...so thanks for those. Ive been looking through some other blogs..interesting stuff. Have been meaning to do one of these for a long time now, but never really had much to say...still havent but hey ho!
Gonna go spiritualist church tonight, see if the spirits have any hints for me! Ill let you know what they say later.

I'm a firm believer in everything in life happening for a reason, I just wish I knew the reasons, and where they will lead.

I will not go into anything too deeply today, for fear of frightening everyone ( including myself!) away before we even begin.

Not a good day today, mind is everywhere, apart from where it should be. I have no clue who I am, where I am, or where I want to be...if anyone has the answers pls let me know asap!

My partner of 1 year is sulking...I have no idea why. 2 days ago, I agreed to his terms of us staying together, which were that at some point in the future I agree to move to his town. He lives an hour drive away from me. I agreed, tho it is a huge step for me, and something I would never have considered before. Hes been sulking since..I cant win! I feel as if I have done something wrong, but I havent. I feel I cant ask him whats wrong, as he has a habit of twisting everything I say, and I will be made to look the bad one...maybe I am!