My life

Isnt it amazing how everything seems so much better when you have a huge plate of indian food sitting in front of you! I so wish i was one of those people that cant eat when theyre pissed off, but instead i stuff my face with anything going! Oh well, i guess thats the way its meant to be!!

Im not sure I believe in God, any god really. I believe in something. I believe in angels, guardian angels, its a nice belief. I also believe everything happens for a reason, which is very helpful when the normal every day bulls*** comes along, I convince myself theres a reason for it, and it all becomes slightly less stressful. Anyway this was a really random post,but then i guess thats what blogging is all about, plus Im bored out of my mind! So Ill shut up again now :-)

I havent been here for a while, been busy working ( or pretending to anyway!) But I do feel the need to rant once again! Last valentines day, was terrible. Whats that got to do with anything I hear you say!! Well everything it seems! I had only been with his majesty for a couple months then, and we'd split for a couple weeks, while he played the 'i dont want a jealous gf' card! jealous?? moi?? Anyway on that day, I was convinced he would show up and suprise me, instead he turned his phone off for the whole night! The next day when i spoke to him he said hed had a female friend round, etc etc, and hed left her in bed that morning and gone out...when i gave him the reaction he was obviously hoping for, he accused me of jumping to conclusions and that it was just a friend, and hed slept on the sofa! ( are you confused yet?!) so anyway no more was said, i assumed he was playing games as usual and didnt have anyone there at all, just wanted to piss me off, so i just let him get on with it. So anyway, this weekend I was at his, sat morning till sunday night...it was my bday on sat. we had a nice time...till sun afternoon. the subject of Valentines day came up, and in general convo i asked what female friend hed had round? he replied he cant remember, in a kind of messing around way..???? I asked again, he said wtf has it got to do with you, we werent together..then he flew into a rage, when i said hes making himself look guilty, shouting and swore for a bit, i shouted and swore back for a bit...then he walked out the door and disappeared somewhere in his car! lol I waited for about half hour, baring in mind im in his flat, an hours drive away from home, then i called him...he diverted my call. So i thought bugger this, and left. well that was yesterday afernoon about 5 ish. I have still heard nothing, and to be honest i dont give a flying f*!!! If the childish ahole wants to sulk then let him!! Im actually thinking he might not contact me at all...hes going to accuse me of being jealous again, and say he doesnt want a jealous girlfriend!! whatever he says itll e all my fault and i really cant be arsed. Well rant over, thanks for that, I feel much better now!!

Its been 26 hours since his majesty decided to ignore me again...Oh joy!