My life

I think soon I will delete my last post, that nasty pic keeps popping up and its quite depressing! He still doesnt know Ive seen the pics, I wont tell him, he'll say its a friend, accuse me of being jealous, have a moan at me, and tell me ' i was considering us gettin back together but you've just f***cked it up now' Hes so bloody predictable! This, if Im caught offguard, will depress me even more. Instead, i have done something that is really gonna get to him, and its made me feel much better :-)
Anyway monday is here...today Im off to persuade my mum to buy me a new car. well she wont actually buy it..the car I have now is on finance, in her name ( I have a terible credit rating) and i want to swap it for one a bit more expensive. The current one is an estate..as m work at the time involved carting lots of dogs around all day. Now im not doing that anymore i want something a bit more posey..maybe a mid life crisis..and possibly brought on by the fact my bf has dumped me for someone that looks like a horse...but anyway, Ive seen a lovely golf convertible, and ive always wanted a convertible...so fingers crossed! Mum hasnt actually said no, which is always a good sign! Im hoping the sun will come out at some point today...its been lovely the last couple days, not that ive seen much of it. Ive been curled up on sofa with a blanket most of weekend, in a state of depression..what a bloody waste!

His majesty went to alton towers for the weekend, with a few friends, 2 of which I knew were female friends; It was all arranged though a dance site that hes a member of...anyway after searching to find any pics posted this is what i found...and no, the girl isnt me!

2 people have added 'lovely' to my user tags, almost brought a tear to my eye! lol. One says lovely soul, and the other 'lovely...sure'. Now im not sure what the 'sure' part means!
Anyway its approaching friday night, which means im about to blare some music out, have a few drinks, and get ready to go out. Im not sure gettin really drunk is a good idea with my current state of mind...but I need a drink! Anyway, I intend on having lots of fun :-) When I had my dog put to sleep a few months back, i went out and got really drunk...worst idea ive ever had...woke up in morning on sofa, fully clothed, including coat, make up all down my face and olivers old collar around my neck!!!!! Well i did warn you im slightly insane!
I havent sent the letter to his majesty yet, because firstly i still havent finished it, and secondly hes away till sunday so he wont get email yet anyway. Anyway my plan of the moment, is im gonna do as i like and be a total bitch to him ( having lots of fun in the meantime) BUT my plans dont always go according to plan! My best friend always gets very worried when i have a 'plan'!
I recieved a couple more texts from the ex today. why cant i treat his majesty like i do the ex??...heres the convo...
ex : hi babe, do you know whats happening with you and bf yet?
me : I dont have a clue, hes playing silly games, so im gona mess him around a bit
ex : how long will it take you to drive over here, ive got a headache and could do with some tlc
me: Im too busy
ex: ok darling, your mind is obviously messed up at the moment, Ill see you next week instead ( !!!!!)
me: hahaha you twat!
ex: what have i told you about calling me that
me: yeah and what do i say when you tell me!
ex: Hmmmm

God give me strength!!!
I dont think i will be sleeping with him, ive remembered what a prat he is!