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<feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom"><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2009-11-11:/</id><title>My life</title><link rel="self" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/feed/atom/posts/"/><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/"/><generator version="1.0">MokoFeed</generator><updated>2009-11-11T01:28:15+01:00</updated><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-07-03:/2007/07/03/hello~2566671/</id><title>hello!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/07/03/hello~2566671/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-07-03T17:27:46+02:00</published><updated>2007-07-03T17:27:46+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Wel I havent been around for ages now..I have alot of reading to do!! Not much gossip really. My old dog is still hanging on, despite having booked his ticket to heaven twice now, and cancelled as he seems to know, and perks up every time!&lt;br&gt;
The weather is so depressing, are we ever gonna get a summer?? I havent had any of the terrible floods that alot have had, and am thankful for that. Give it 2 weeks and we'll have a bloody hosepipe ban!&lt;br&gt;
Tomorrow I am going night fishing! Im not interested in fishing at all, but I thought itd be fun to go along for the camping part of it!&lt;br&gt;
Me n his majesty are back together...I kinda thought that after 34 years of never feeling lke this about anyone, it was worth one more shot, and, at the moment Im really glad I did. We are gettin on so well, and Im feeling great about it all. who knows what will happen in the future, but for now Im hanging on to this feeling! OK enough of the soppy crap, before you all puke on your keyboards!&lt;br&gt;
I hope all my friends here are well, n ill write again soon!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/07/03/hello~2566671/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-06-04:/2007/06/04/monday~2390755/</id><title>monday</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/04/monday~2390755/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-06-04T08:04:38+02:00</published><updated>2007-06-04T08:04:38+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;I think soon I will delete my last post, that nasty pic keeps popping up and its quite depressing! He still doesnt know Ive seen the pics, I wont tell him, he'll say its a friend, accuse me of being jealous, have a moan at me, and tell me ' i was considering us gettin back together but you've just f***cked it up now' Hes so bloody predictable! This, if Im caught offguard, will depress me even more. Instead, i have done something that is really gonna get to him, and its made me feel much better :-)&lt;br&gt;
Anyway monday is here...today Im off to persuade my mum to buy me a new car. well she wont actually buy it..the car I have now is on finance, in her name ( I have a terible credit rating) and i want to swap it for one a bit more expensive. The current one is an estate..as m work at the time involved carting lots of dogs around all day. Now im not doing that anymore i want something a bit more posey..maybe a mid life crisis..and possibly brought on by the fact my bf has dumped me for someone that looks like a horse...but anyway, Ive seen a lovely golf convertible, and ive always wanted a convertible...so fingers crossed! Mum hasnt actually said no, which is always a good sign! Im hoping the sun will come out at some point today...its been lovely the last couple days, not that ive seen much of it. Ive been curled up on sofa with a blanket most of weekend, in a state of depression..what a bloody waste!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/04/monday~2390755/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-06-03:/2007/06/03/title~2387628/</id><title>it just gets better</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/03/title~2387628/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-06-03T18:14:33+02:00</published><updated>2007-06-03T18:15:14+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;His majesty went to alton towers for the weekend, with a few friends, 2 of which I knew were female friends; It was all arranged though a dance site that hes a member of...anyway after searching to find any pics posted this is what i found...and no, the girl isnt me!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/03/title~2387628/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-06-01:/2007/06/01/user_tags~2374185/</id><title>user tags</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/01/user_tags~2374185/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-06-01T15:52:58+02:00</published><updated>2007-06-01T15:52:58+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;2 people have added 'lovely' to my user tags, almost brought a tear to my eye! lol. One says lovely soul, and the other 'lovely...sure'. Now im not sure what the 'sure' part means!&lt;br&gt;
Anyway its approaching friday night, which means im about to blare some music out, have a few drinks, and get ready to go out. Im not sure gettin really drunk is a good idea with my current state of mind...but I need a drink! Anyway, I intend on having lots of fun :-) When I had my dog put to sleep a few months back, i went out and got really drunk...worst idea ive ever had...woke up in morning on sofa, fully clothed, including coat, make up all down my face and olivers old collar around my neck!!!!! Well i did warn you im slightly insane!&lt;br&gt;
I havent sent the letter to his majesty yet, because firstly i still havent finished it, and secondly hes away till sunday so he wont get email yet anyway. Anyway my plan of the moment, is im gonna do as i like and be a total bitch to him ( having lots of fun in the meantime) BUT my plans dont always go according to plan! My best friend always gets very worried when i have a 'plan'!&lt;br&gt;
I recieved a couple more texts from the ex today. why cant i treat his majesty like i do the ex??...heres the convo...&lt;br&gt;
ex : hi babe, do you know whats happening with you and bf yet?&lt;br&gt;
me : I dont have a clue, hes playing silly games, so im gona mess him around a bit&lt;br&gt;
ex : how long will it take you to drive over here, ive got a headache and could do with some tlc&lt;br&gt;
me: Im too busy&lt;br&gt;
ex: ok darling, your mind is obviously messed up at the moment, Ill see you next week instead ( !!!!!)&lt;br&gt;
me: hahaha you twat!&lt;br&gt;
ex: what have i told you about calling me that&lt;br&gt;
me: yeah and what do i say when you tell me!&lt;br&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;God give me strength!!!&lt;br&gt;
I dont think i will be sleeping with him, ive remembered what a prat he is!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/06/01/user_tags~2374185/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-31:/2007/05/31/thought~2367134/</id><title>thought</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/thought~2367134/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-31T13:48:34+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-31T13:48:34+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;I just recieved a text from a man I had a breif affair with before i met his majesty...I think I may sleep with him this weekend! lol
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/thought~2367134/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-31:/2007/05/31/to_his_majesty~2365711/</id><title>to his majesty</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/to_his_majesty~2365711/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-31T09:19:12+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-31T14:13:06+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Your Majesty,&lt;br&gt;
As you know, Im not great with words...in fact Im not 'great' with anything, Im just ok, and probably always will be. I have an ok house, i drive an ok car, i wear ok clothes. I dont get out as much as id like, id love to do more things, and go to more places, but im sure that will all come in time. Puppies make me smile, ive been known to hug a tree!! Im sensitive, caring, very easily pleased, and just want to be happy. I may not have much, but what I do have ive worked hard for and achieved myself, and im very proud of this.&lt;br&gt;
You, on the other hand, are self centred, manipulative, and the biggest control freak ive ever come across! All you care about are material things, and gettin what you want. Did I ever tell you that your arse looks huge in those versace jeans, and i once drove your porsche home from the shops with the handbreak on? You are, what we'd call in our town, ' a total cock'&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;oh bugger, my mums on her way round for coffee...to be continued later!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/to_his_majesty~2365711/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-31:/2007/05/31/oh_what_an_update~2364656/</id><title>oh what an update!!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/oh_what_an_update~2364656/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-31T01:16:38+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-31T01:16:38+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Well, Ive finaly got my answer. If i remmeber rightly, in an earlier post i predicted that his majesty would make me sweat for a bit before threatening to end it, unless I do this or that. I think i get 10 out of ten, for predicting the behaviour of the male tosser!&lt;br&gt;
Despite my good mood earlier in the evening, it slipped, and i ended up getting more and more depressed, so I called him ( sorry!) He didnt answer. so then i chose a new tactic, and text sayin i was a bit worried about him, and could he let me know he was ok ( worried about him my arse!!) he replied straigh away 'Im ok' I replied ' are we over' he replied 'yep' ( he didnt even have the decency to say yes sorry, or even just yes...just a cocky 'yep'!!) Ok so this is the part where my stomach is in my mouth, hearts beating so hard its nearly popping out my chest, and Im in a total panic! Im sure its not just me that gets that feeling? when this total panic comes, there is absolutely nothing i can do about my actions, and i mean nothing! Ill try deep breaths, ok ok think about this, do not panic, its ok, dont say anything stupid...but alas, the begging begins. I can look back 30 mins later, and think to myself 'omg you said what??' but at the time, i have no control. Cmon there must be someone that can relate to this? no?? bugger!&lt;br&gt;
so after a couple more texts from me, asking why why why, and desperate unanswered phone calls, he finally texts again. Im going to write these word for word so you get the real idea!...altho i wont tell you my replies, for fear of looking a total desperate dope!&lt;br&gt;
'we are not right for each other, yes we get on well, but i want more than that, there are too many things that we see and do different, i want different things than you do. ive been thinking over the last few days and i dont want to have to put up with it anymore'&lt;br&gt;
'your not right for me, you just want the easy slow paced life, i wanna go places, do things, not with someone who smokes and leaves ash everywhere ( hes been tryin to get me to give up smoking for ages!!)I want someone who lives closer to me ( hes been tryin to get me to move to london!)&lt;br&gt;
At this point i think i said id give up smoking and move in with him, ok ok i can see the funny side now, but at the time it just comes out!!&lt;br&gt;
'look how long ive asked you to stop smoking, i dont expect you to do it right away but you havent even tried. you're a country girl whos used to that life style. how can you change that?&lt;br&gt;
after a few more similar texts, with me replying that id change...he said he was going to bed and hed text when he got home from work, and not to 'bother him before then' !!!&lt;br&gt;
so basically, as predicted, hes making demands, and by saying its over, he knows ill do it.&lt;br&gt;
Now the weird thing is, now im back slightly in control and i know if i try hard enough he'll stay with me, Im sane again, and im starting to think what an asshole!! and in a slightly warped kind of way, im planning my revenge...the only thing is, ill need to be in control before i can be strong and end it, otherwise my feelings get the better of me, and il find myself begging again...does this make any sense at all? My goodness, i think i need a shrink!!! lol&lt;br&gt;
On the other hand, all the things hes asked me to do, give up smoking, move away, change my lifestlye, etc etc, are things that i really do want to do anyway, but i will never do them unless i get a huge push, which im getting..which kind of makes me think, maybe this is what im supposed to do. oh what to do!!&lt;br&gt;
If anyone has actually read the whole of this, and havent died from laughing, a little advice would be great. :-)
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/31/oh_what_an_update~2364656/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-30:/2007/05/30/title~2362772/</id><title>doing quite well</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/title~2362772/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-30T19:03:25+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-30T19:03:47+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Well I havent thrown up for about 5 hours now, so ive decided to crack open a bottle of...vodka lol. Ive done the housework, with madonna blaring..even managed a bit of a dance with the dog ( who wasnt impressed) and have discovered that the pepper pot makes an excellent pretend mic. Now the house is lovely and clean, ive moved the laptop into front room, and settled on sofa with a blanket, ready for emerdale, corrie, and then later the dreaded big brother! I havent thought about his majesty for at least..ummmm...5 minutes lol&lt;br&gt;
My eldest dog is quie senile, and hes really doing my head in tonight. hes wandering in and out of room, over and over, then he'll go to the back door like he needs to go out, you let him out and he comes straight back in again, you shut the door and he waits at it again! this has happened so many times tonight ive left the door open....hence the blanket!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/title~2362772/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-30:/2007/05/30/opinions_pls~2360579/</id><title>opinions pls?</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/opinions_pls~2360579/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-30T13:01:13+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-30T13:05:23+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;ok ok I know, your tired of hearing about it lol. I just want a couple opinions if poss...should i text and just ask if its over? or is that being a doormat? im really terrible at this, but i need to know if its over
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/opinions_pls~2360579/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-30:/2007/05/30/i_suppose_i_should_update~2359275/</id><title>I suppose I should update</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/i_suppose_i_should_update~2359275/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-30T08:47:45+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-30T08:47:45+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Well..Im trying coffee now, and sipping slowly. Hopefully ill keep it down! I always knew my cooking was bad, but im sure its never actually made anyone sick!&lt;br&gt;
ok, well, its coming up to 3 days, and no, I still havent heard anything. what id like to know is, if our feelings are our feelings, why cant we control them! I dont know what to think anymore, but im gettin to the stage where im thinking hes never gonna call. either that or hes waiting for me to say sorry and beg, and im determined not to do that! I dont think i ever want to feel like this again.&lt;br&gt;
anyway, its raining again, ive had washing on the line for almost a week now! ( yes im a pikey sally) I kep meaning to get it in and wash it again, but i guess im a lazy bitch!&lt;br&gt;
My eldest dog has a cold..i didnt even know dogs could get colds, but hes sniffly and snotty, and that realy doesnt help with the dodgy tummy!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/i_suppose_i_should_update~2359275/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-30:/2007/05/30/sick~2359018/</id><title>sick!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/sick~2359018/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-30T07:51:41+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-30T07:51:41+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;what a night!! Ive spent the whole night and morning with my head down the toilet. I feel like shit! Have just drunk half a cup of tea, and threw it up, and im so tired, but have to work at 10. Oh joy!&lt;img src="/img/smilies/graysleep.gif" alt=":zz:" class="middle" border="0"&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/sick~2359018/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-29:/2007/05/29/question_of_the_day~2355841/</id><title>question of the day</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/question_of_the_day~2355841/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-29T17:50:40+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-29T17:50:40+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Why has there been a nearly full packet of choc digestives in my fridge, for nearly 2 weeks now, when I own a 14 yr old human dustbin of a son?
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/question_of_the_day~2355841/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-29:/2007/05/29/2_whole_days~2355615/</id><title>2 whole days</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/2_whole_days~2355615/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-29T17:17:03+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-29T17:24:07+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Ive just read someones post about some peoples blogs driving them mad, as theyre about nothing interesting whatsoever, so,if anyones reading this, i apologise, I realise my blogs are boring and even somewhat depressing..but it always makes me feel better to have a rant, even if nobody reads! :-)&lt;br&gt;
Anyway its now coming up to 2 days since i left his majestys, and have been ignored. I have decided to take your advice normal guy lol...well everyones advice really, but I will be using yor line as i thought it very fitting. When he does eventually contact me, threatening to end things with us, unless i do this, or do that, or beg ( because the manipulating bastard will do this) i am going to laugh at him and tell him to 'go play his juvenile controlling games with someone who wants to be a doormat....and then Ill cross all my fingers and toes, and pray he doesnt!! hahah  Im terrible at this!!! :-)
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/2_whole_days~2355615/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-29:/2007/05/29/i_stole_the_last_thing_too~2354305/</id><title>I stole the last thing too!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/i_stole_the_last_thing_too~2354305/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-29T13:30:14+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-29T13:30:14+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The last thing I bought = indian takeaway last night&lt;br&gt;
The last program I watched = jeremy Kyle show this morning&lt;br&gt;
The last thing I listened to = I wanna love you, akon, in the car on way to work.&lt;br&gt;
The last place I went to = work, to the house of an old lady I housekeep for.&lt;br&gt;
The last person I saw = My son, briefly, he grunted at me when i got home, before dissapearing back into his room to play playstation.&lt;br&gt;
The last thing I ate = left over indian take away for breakfast!&lt;br&gt;
The last thing I drank = Coffee&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The last book I read = Some true crime, serial kller book, cant remember what it was called.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/i_stole_the_last_thing_too~2354305/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-29:/2007/05/29/girl_power_is_fading_fast~2354255/</id><title>girl power is fading fast!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/girl_power_is_fading_fast~2354255/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-29T13:22:22+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-29T13:22:22+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;help!! I need a boost lol. Still heard nothing, sent a text a couple hours ago..'what the f*** is wrong with you? we had an arguement, no reason to ignore me for days! It would be nice if youd at least let me know whats going on'...... nothing. If i still havent heard anything by the end of tonight i shall assume its over. Im not tryin to contact him anymore, ive done my bit.
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/girl_power_is_fading_fast~2354255/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-29:/2007/05/29/40_hour_update~2352634/</id><title>40 hour update!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/40_hour_update~2352634/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-29T08:38:50+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-29T08:38:50+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;counting??? moi?? no way, its just a rough guess! lol Well Ive still heard nothing, dispite texting last night 'how long are you intending to ignore me for?' !! So i guess the answer is longer than this! The girl power thing is slightly higher than it was late last night, id say about a 7. Im thinking if hes decided its over, he is the type that would tell me, not just ignore me and hope i go away, so hes obviously just trying to piss me off, and i must admit, its working a little!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/29/40_hour_update~2352634/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-28:/2007/05/28/indian_takeaway~2350852/</id><title>indian takeaway</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/indian_takeaway~2350852/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-28T21:08:50+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-28T21:08:50+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Isnt it amazing how everything seems so much better when you have a huge plate of indian food sitting in front of you! I so wish i was one of those people that cant eat when theyre pissed off, but instead i stuff my face with anything going! Oh well, i guess thats the way its meant to be!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/indian_takeaway~2350852/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-28:/2007/05/28/angels~2350787/</id><title>angels</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/angels~2350787/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-28T20:59:56+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-28T20:59:56+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Im not sure I believe in God, any god really. I believe in something. I believe in angels, guardian angels, its a nice belief. I also believe everything happens for a reason, which is very helpful when the normal every day bulls*** comes along, I convince myself theres a reason for it, and it all becomes slightly less stressful. Anyway this was a really random post,but then i guess thats what blogging is all about, plus Im bored out of my mind! So Ill shut up again now :-)
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/angels~2350787/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-28:/2007/05/28/girl_power_at_least_i_think_thats_what_i~2350246/</id><title>girl power, at least i think thats what its called!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/girl_power_at_least_i_think_thats_what_i~2350246/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-28T19:39:14+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-28T19:39:14+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;I havent been here for a while, been busy working ( or pretending to anyway!) But I do feel the need to rant once again! Last valentines day, was terrible. Whats that got to do with anything I hear you say!! Well everything it seems! I had only been with his majesty for a couple months then, and we'd split for a couple weeks, while he played the 'i dont want a jealous gf' card! jealous?? moi?? Anyway on that day, I was convinced he would show up and suprise me, instead he turned his phone off for the whole night! The next day when i spoke to him he said hed had a female friend round, etc etc, and hed left her in bed that morning and gone out...when i gave him the reaction he was obviously hoping for, he accused me of jumping to conclusions and that it was just a friend, and hed slept on the sofa! ( are you confused yet?!) so anyway no more was said, i assumed he was playing games as usual and didnt have anyone there at all, just wanted to piss me off, so i just let him get on with it. So anyway, this weekend I was at his, sat morning till sunday night...it was my bday on sat. we had a nice time...till sun afternoon. the subject of Valentines day came up, and in general convo i asked what female friend hed had round? he replied he cant remember, in a kind of messing around way..???? I asked again, he said wtf has it got to do with you, we werent together..then he flew into a rage, when i said hes making himself look guilty, shouting and swore for a bit, i shouted and swore back for a bit...then he walked out the door and disappeared somewhere in his car! lol I waited for about half hour, baring in mind im in his flat, an hours drive away from home, then i called him...he diverted my call. So i thought bugger this, and left. well that was yesterday afernoon about 5 ish. I have still heard nothing, and to be honest i dont give a flying f&lt;strong&gt;*!!! If the childish a&lt;/strong&gt;hole wants to sulk then let him!! Im actually thinking he might not contact me at all...hes going to accuse me of being jealous again, and say he doesnt want a jealous girlfriend!! whatever he says itll e all my fault and i really cant be arsed. Well rant over, thanks for that, I feel much better now!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/girl_power_at_least_i_think_thats_what_i~2350246/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-28:/2007/05/28/26_hours_and_counting~2350111/</id><title>26 hours and counting</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/26_hours_and_counting~2350111/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-28T19:21:12+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-28T19:21:12+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Its been 26 hours since his majesty decided to ignore me again...Oh joy!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/28/26_hours_and_counting~2350111/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-18:/2007/05/18/to_drink_or_not_to_drink~2292794/</id><title>To drink or not to drink</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/to_drink_or_not_to_drink~2292794/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-18T16:26:28+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-18T16:26:28+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;That is the question...Well its friday, the evening is getting near, and i have a decision to make. Do i spend it as usual, drinking far too much vodka, having a reasonably good time at the pub, stumbling home at 230am, falling asleep fully clothed on the sofa, and then waking with the worst of hangovers on sat morning ( which nowadays tend to last the whole weekend) or do I stay in, curl up on the sofa, watch eastenders, have a curry, and then have a hangover free weekend?&lt;br&gt;
Ive stayed home the last 2 fridays, and its been great to not have a hangover, and the house stays tidy all weekend, where as if i go out, its trashed when I get ready, and then gets more trashed over the next 2 days as i suffer. But I do feel like going out tonight. Hmmm its a toughie!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/to_drink_or_not_to_drink~2292794/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-18:/2007/05/18/madeleine~2291220/</id><title>Madeleine</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/madeleine~2291220/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-18T11:39:23+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-18T11:39:23+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Pls post this banner as many places as poss, to help bring madeleine home&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.bringmadeleinehome.com"&gt;&lt;img src="http://www.bringmadeleinehome.com/img/maddy450x124Banner.jpg" alt="Banner1" width="450" height="124" border="0"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/madeleine~2291220/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-18:/2007/05/18/jeremy_kyle~2290689/</id><title>jeremy kyle</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/jeremy_kyle~2290689/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-18T09:45:27+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-18T09:45:27+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Ive been sitting here so engrosed in JK, that I didnt realise what a bloody gorgeous day it is! It has rained non stop for days, and now, at last, the sun is out! Great, it may even inspire me to do something today! Even the dogs lying on the patio. Hmmm maybe I can take the laptop outside!&lt;br&gt;
Jeremy Kyle headline 'youve got 3 women pregnant at the same time and now confess you're gay'!! how very odd. Jeremys gettin irate again. Where do they find these people??
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/jeremy_kyle~2290689/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-18:/2007/05/18/sugar_puffs~2290472/</id><title>sugar puffs</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/sugar_puffs~2290472/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-18T09:00:59+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-18T09:00:59+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Question of the day...Why do sugar puffs make your wee smell?&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I never seem to have anything interesting to say, and today, Im afraid, Is the same. Its 845am, and I AM NOT going to stay on the computer any longer than 10.30 this morning,( when jeremy kyle finishes) I still havent touched the ironing, just the thought of it scares me! It would be so nice to open my wardrobe and find it filled with nicely hanging ironed clothes, instead of having to search through a huge pile every time i want something. Im guessing i will find clothes at the bottom of the pile that i forgot i even had! I used to pay my neighbour to do my ironing, until she really took the piss and said itd taken 4 hours when i know damn well there was only 2 hours worth there at the most!&lt;br&gt;
Ive just been looking through 'my documents' and I found something rather amusing. I met my current bf ( his majesty) on an internet dating site. When we had been together a few weeks we had an arguement, and I decided a little revenge was in order. His dating site profile was still up, and I had the password ( mwahahahhaa) I logged on, and proceeded to change it to say he was a gay man searching for men in his area, I then messaged as many gay men as possible, giving out his mobile phone number :-) Im not sure if he actually got any calls, he wouldnt have told me if he did, and fortunately he did see the funny side when he found out, but oh how i laughed! aaahhh revenge is sweet!&lt;br&gt;
Anyway enough for now, Im going to attempt to get out of this chair and make some coffee.
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/18/sugar_puffs~2290472/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/a_few_questions~2287608/</id><title>a few questions</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/a_few_questions~2287608/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T17:41:48+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T17:56:08+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Why do kids insist on turning the tv on in every room, and then leaving it on?&lt;br&gt;
where do birds sleep at night?&lt;br&gt;
Why does coffee always taste better at someone elses?&lt;br&gt;
Why shouldnt men have to go through the pain of childbirth?&lt;br&gt;
Why can I drink half a bottle of vodka and feel fine, yet after one glass of wine im anybodys?&lt;br&gt;
How do the hairs on your legs know when to stop growing?&lt;br&gt;
why is there never any hot water when I want a bath?&lt;br&gt;
Why do we like to read whilst emptying our bowels?&lt;br&gt;
and finally...what is the meaning of life?&lt;br&gt;
*ponders*
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/a_few_questions~2287608/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/gretchen~2287347/</id><title>Gretchen</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/gretchen~2287347/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T16:54:21+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T16:54:21+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Now Im sure im gonna be in trouble for writing this...but oh well.&lt;br&gt;
A couple weeks ago, I was chattin online with an online friend of mine. He said he was also having a convo with a slightly deranged girl who had tld him she was going to send her ghost 'gretchen' to him. Well we both laughed and took the piss a bit ( like you do) the next night this friend of mine was online again..he messaged me saying lots of weird stuff had happened, his pc had turned itself off for no reason, the room had gone cold etc etc. When i laughed at him and told him he was imagining things he told me he was going to send gretchen to me. lol. Sure enough the next day when i turned on my messenger, all of my contact names had just dissapeared apart from this friend of mine! theyd just gone..were nowhere to be found! weird huh! so the moral of this story is, never mock gretchen!!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/gretchen~2287347/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/does_this_happen_to_anyone_else~2285901/</id><title>does this happen to anyone else?</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/does_this_happen_to_anyone_else~2285901/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T12:35:26+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T12:35:26+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Ok this is gonna be my last blog for today, coz i really AM going to get up and do something!! Does anyone else have this problem, I get up in the mornings, with every intention of doing constructive things like housework, walking the dog, going to the gym, cooking something nice etc etc, and then I hear this voice.....its the laptop calling me from the kitchen table...at first I ignore it, but it gets louder and louder until I eventually give in, and here i sit, unable to tear myself away, for hours!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/does_this_happen_to_anyone_else~2285901/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/cant_get_the_hang_of_this~2285844/</id><title>cant get the hang of this!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/cant_get_the_hang_of_this~2285844/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T12:21:00+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T12:21:00+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Ok can someone whos is not on my friends list tell me if my profile pic shows, its not supposed to show to anyone apart from friends but i think i may have done it wrong! thanks!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/cant_get_the_hang_of_this~2285844/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/oh_memories~2285144/</id><title>oh memories!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/oh_memories~2285144/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T10:31:49+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T10:31:49+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;2 years ago I ended a 5 yr realtionship with a bit of a twat! He wasnt a particualrly nasty  person, nothing intentional, he just didnt think, ever! He was alot younger than me, and immature i guess. For the first year he made my life hell. For some reason i battled constantly to make him care. Then the realtionship kind of drifted to a new level...I got on with my life, and didnt let him bother me, i was happy, kind of happy gettin on with things without him, but still in a relationship with him. I saw him when i felt like it, or when he felt like it and I agreed, and this went on for 4 further years. What a waste of 5 years I hear you say! but it wasnt. Im very independant, I live alone ( with my son) and have done for 14 years, and I love it, so i guess this suited me. I still had the independance of soing what I liked when I liked, but I also had someone there when I needed them. This guy that used to put everyone esle before me, treat me like shit, and hardly ever see me, turned into a clingy, obbsessive, who still, 2 years later confesses to be in love with me!! bloody typical! why is it you never get what you want until you dont want it anymore! Anyway, it all came to an end when he decided to put a brick through my kitchen window, in a drunk jealous rage, because I wouldnt let him in at 3am! I wouldnt have minded, but he proceeded to climb through the window and help himself to one of my cigarettes!!! oh the memories!!
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/oh_memories~2285144/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:onlymeagain.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/bugger_help~2284955/</id><title>bugger! help!!</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://onlymeagain.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/bugger_help~2284955/"/><author><name>sarahjane1234</name></author><published>2007-05-17T09:58:51+02:00</published><updated>2007-05-17T09:58:51+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Ok I put a pic on, but I think everyone can see it and I dont want that, but now I cant work out how to delete it!!! helppppppp
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