My life

what a night!! Ive spent the whole night and morning with my head down the toilet. I feel like shit! Have just drunk half a cup of tea, and threw it up, and im so tired, but have to work at 10. Oh joy!

Why has there been a nearly full packet of choc digestives in my fridge, for nearly 2 weeks now, when I own a 14 yr old human dustbin of a son?

Ive just read someones post about some peoples blogs driving them mad, as theyre about nothing interesting whatsoever, so,if anyones reading this, i apologise, I realise my blogs are boring and even somewhat depressing..but it always makes me feel better to have a rant, even if nobody reads! :-)
Anyway its now coming up to 2 days since i left his majestys, and have been ignored. I have decided to take your advice normal guy lol...well everyones advice really, but I will be using yor line as i thought it very fitting. When he does eventually contact me, threatening to end things with us, unless i do this, or do that, or beg ( because the manipulating bastard will do this) i am going to laugh at him and tell him to 'go play his juvenile controlling games with someone who wants to be a doormat....and then Ill cross all my fingers and toes, and pray he doesnt!! hahah Im terrible at this!!! :-)

The last thing I bought = indian takeaway last night
The last program I watched = jeremy Kyle show this morning
The last thing I listened to = I wanna love you, akon, in the car on way to work.
The last place I went to = work, to the house of an old lady I housekeep for.
The last person I saw = My son, briefly, he grunted at me when i got home, before dissapearing back into his room to play playstation.
The last thing I ate = left over indian take away for breakfast!
The last thing I drank = Coffee

The last book I read = Some true crime, serial kller book, cant remember what it was called.

help!! I need a boost lol. Still heard nothing, sent a text a couple hours ago..'what the f*** is wrong with you? we had an arguement, no reason to ignore me for days! It would be nice if youd at least let me know whats going on'...... nothing. If i still havent heard anything by the end of tonight i shall assume its over. Im not tryin to contact him anymore, ive done my bit.

counting??? moi?? no way, its just a rough guess! lol Well Ive still heard nothing, dispite texting last night 'how long are you intending to ignore me for?' !! So i guess the answer is longer than this! The girl power thing is slightly higher than it was late last night, id say about a 7. Im thinking if hes decided its over, he is the type that would tell me, not just ignore me and hope i go away, so hes obviously just trying to piss me off, and i must admit, its working a little!

Isnt it amazing how everything seems so much better when you have a huge plate of indian food sitting in front of you! I so wish i was one of those people that cant eat when theyre pissed off, but instead i stuff my face with anything going! Oh well, i guess thats the way its meant to be!!

Im not sure I believe in God, any god really. I believe in something. I believe in angels, guardian angels, its a nice belief. I also believe everything happens for a reason, which is very helpful when the normal every day bulls*** comes along, I convince myself theres a reason for it, and it all becomes slightly less stressful. Anyway this was a really random post,but then i guess thats what blogging is all about, plus Im bored out of my mind! So Ill shut up again now :-)

I havent been here for a while, been busy working ( or pretending to anyway!) But I do feel the need to rant once again! Last valentines day, was terrible. Whats that got to do with anything I hear you say!! Well everything it seems! I had only been with his majesty for a couple months then, and we'd split for a couple weeks, while he played the 'i dont want a jealous gf' card! jealous?? moi?? Anyway on that day, I was convinced he would show up and suprise me, instead he turned his phone off for the whole night! The next day when i spoke to him he said hed had a female friend round, etc etc, and hed left her in bed that morning and gone out...when i gave him the reaction he was obviously hoping for, he accused me of jumping to conclusions and that it was just a friend, and hed slept on the sofa! ( are you confused yet?!) so anyway no more was said, i assumed he was playing games as usual and didnt have anyone there at all, just wanted to piss me off, so i just let him get on with it. So anyway, this weekend I was at his, sat morning till sunday night...it was my bday on sat. we had a nice time...till sun afternoon. the subject of Valentines day came up, and in general convo i asked what female friend hed had round? he replied he cant remember, in a kind of messing around way..???? I asked again, he said wtf has it got to do with you, we werent together..then he flew into a rage, when i said hes making himself look guilty, shouting and swore for a bit, i shouted and swore back for a bit...then he walked out the door and disappeared somewhere in his car! lol I waited for about half hour, baring in mind im in his flat, an hours drive away from home, then i called him...he diverted my call. So i thought bugger this, and left. well that was yesterday afernoon about 5 ish. I have still heard nothing, and to be honest i dont give a flying f*!!! If the childish ahole wants to sulk then let him!! Im actually thinking he might not contact me at all...hes going to accuse me of being jealous again, and say he doesnt want a jealous girlfriend!! whatever he says itll e all my fault and i really cant be arsed. Well rant over, thanks for that, I feel much better now!!

Its been 26 hours since his majesty decided to ignore me again...Oh joy!